How do you feel about your little brother?

Before we start reading the bed time stories last night, I asked Iz if we can spend a little time to just talk. She was like " ok!" 

"So tell me about how do U feel about your little Ike? Sad? Mad? Jealous? " I asked her. I intentionally not to mention any positivie word. Coz, I want to see how does she really feel about the whole new little brother thingy. 

I also said, "It's ok if you feel bad about it. I won't get mad.. i just want to know how you feel." I smiled at her.. 


"Happy!" she answered me without any hesitations. 

"Why are you happy?" I asked again.

"Because I get to sleep next to him, I get to say ang gugu to him, he also have to drink milk just like me..." she replied. I tried not to laugh.


Then, I asked again,"Do you feel mad every time you have to wait for mommy to be finished with baby Ike, then do your routines?" 

" It's ok , mommy! I can wait! While waiting I can watch Super Why and Umizoomie. Just make sure you play the memory game with me after you done with baby brother tho." she smiled

"You have to learn to take care and love each other when you guys are older ok?"  I continued, "it's ok to fight over things, disagree with each other, mad at each other but always remember to love each other doesn't matter what happened in the future.... " 

"Where are you going , mommy?" she interrupted me. 

"Oh, I am not going any where but to be around to see you guys fight n love over things." I smiled. 

"Ok! Please don't go anywhere. So can we read now?" she giggled. I said ok. 

Then we started to read but I couldn't help to think how good, nice, mature and patience of her to deal with the new addition. It kinda break my heart hearing her asked where am I going when I told her to love each other.

She always asked to sleep next to him

Love possing with him

Isabeau @ Starlight Gala 2012

6 weeks before may 17th 2012, craig told me that he was asked to give a speech at the Starlight Children Foundation Events and he wanted to know if it's ok with me to share Isabeau's story on stage. Without thinking I said "yes!". Cause it would help the organization to raise more money for the very sick children. 

2 weeks before the event, Craig came to me again, told me that Starlight would like the family to be on stage with the speaker.

"No!" I yelled out before he even finished his sentence. Yea, I can be super rude some time ( but my friends would say ALL THE TIME!). LOL 

Then I continued,"Are u kidding me? Iz will go crazy, running around and I really don't want to chase after her in front of hundreds of people."  Deep in me, I didn't want to be on the spotlight while I am still weight 155lbs. No kidding! 

Craig replied,"Don't worry, Honey.  It will be quick!" 

"No way, I am not to sure..." before I finished my sentence, I heard Ike crying for food. So I left the room to the kitchen.  Our convo ended without a conclusion. 

The 17th was here. I just remembered what the plan was then I thought "It is what it is!" but I need to warn Iz not to run around on stage. 

We got to the Beverly Hotel at about 6:30pm, took couple pictures and Iz was doing pretty good so far except asking to go potty  5x in an hour. It's her way to get away being on the table. Event started with Bailee Madison and Bryan Callen  on stage , brieftly described about the event and made couple small jokes, then auction etc. Iz was in love with Bailee. 

8:50pm, a guy came by our table to lead us to the side of the stage.  Getting us ready for the speech. 

9pm, Craig was on stage, Iz and I were waiting for him to finish his speech then joined him on stage. His speech was a little more then 8 mins but that 8 mins felt like 4 years. I cried .. I sobbed during the speech and I was sure there were many of them were just like me. It took me back to when Iz was born, 1st, 2nd and 3rd surgeries. A painful long 2.5 years. 

Craig's speech --- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XPBO1aipLbk&feature=share

I cried.. I sobbed not because I feel sad, Not because I feel the pain, Not because I feel the unfairness but  just simply because I feel proud, I feel love , I feel bless and I feel lucky that she is still very much alive...  Just alive and make our day so meaningful every single day. 

9:09pm : we were introduced by craig to the people. Iz ran to the stage and gave daddy a big big hug. I was in the back of her. Daddy picked her up, so that she can see the people and so that people can see this little sweet heart. In that moment, I suddenly heard many many applauses, people stood up to welcome her, to support her, to appreciate her, to show how proud they were of her.  It was a very very touching moment.

And.. And .. That little girl too clapped her hands then put both of her hands in front of her mouth, waited for people to stop and sit down, then she gave the bigger blow kisses ever. I was like OMG, I never taught her that, all I told her was NOT to run around. Once again, she amazed me. 

People came by to say hi to her, told us how touching the story was. But Iz was just not in the mood of standing there to say hi, she ran to Bailee, tried to get her to play with her.  Eventually, Bailee offered babysit Iz. 

We left at about 11:00 pm, Iz was talking about the bands who sang at the events.  Couple mins later, I heard nothing, I turned around to check on her, she crushed in her car seat.  Looking at her beautiful face, I thought she is such a happy, amazing little angel. Just Just Just so bless to have her in out life. 

Congrats to Ted Price( Craig's boss), Insomniac Games for owning the title of "Heart of Gold". This award is presented to individuals with generous hearts and a deep commitment to children.  He is pretty awesome blossom right?! 

She heard and saw people clapped their hands, so she did that too!

Giving the bigger blow kisses ever!

Handed the " Heart of Gold Award" to Ted Price ( Daddy's boss)

Ted Price & Daddy Goodman