Got to spend some alone time with Iz this afternoon. On our way to get some afternoon snacks, she said, "Mommy, I like you a lot!"
I thought it was pretty cute and sweet, " Aww, I like you a lot too. But why do you like me?" I asked.
"Because you always stay with me, give me all your time, take good care of me, be in the hospital with me..." she said all that without thinking twice.
That was the sweetest thing ever!
Tonight, lying down next to her, looking down her beautiful face, I couldn't help to think what would happen to me if anything CRAZY happen to her especially with her heart condition. What's her future which I HATE when people asking about her future and all my responds were, " do you know your future?"
All those crazy thoughts went away when I felt her wrapping her hands over my arms. But I still feel my heartache.... It made me wonder why am I feeling this kind of pain which I haven't had for a couple years. I think it was because I have to constantly try to remember what is her heart conditions, her surgeries and how I felt all about Isabeau as a spoke person for AHA this month.
I certainly don't like the pain I am feeling but REALLY.. If being a spoke person for AHA can help them to raise more money to safe lives.. why not, right? As I always say Isabeau is here for a reason and Isaac is here for another.He is here for a big sister and I know he will be looking after her for us 20 years later .. 30 years later or may 40 years later.
So, I think this month is harder then any other months.
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